Libra Season: Time To Some Serious Reflections
The primary focus of this podcast episode revolves around the importance of effective communication in fostering meaningful relationships. We explore the various dimensions of interpersonal dialogue, emphasizing the necessity of clarity and empathy in our exchanges. Throughout the discussion, I articulate the transformative power of active listening and its role in enhancing mutual understanding. Furthermore, we examine the barriers that often impede successful communication and provide strategies to overcome these challenges. This episode serves as a crucial reminder of the profound impact that our communicative practices have on our personal and professional lives.
As all of us Libras are taking our trip around the sun, what are the things about you celebrate about yourself, some of the things that hold you back and lastly what are the things holding you back?
Takeaways:
- In this episode, we meticulously examined the intricate dynamics of leadership styles and their implications.
- We articulated the significance of effective communication in fostering a collaborative work environment.
- Our discussion encompassed the critical role of emotional intelligence in enhancing interpersonal relationships.
- We explored the transformative power of resilience in overcoming challenges and adversity in the workplace.
- The episode provided insights into the necessity of adaptability in an ever-evolving professional landscape.
- We emphasized the importance of continuous learning and self-improvement for professional development.
Transcript
I saw all these.
Speaker A:You know, it's like.
Speaker A:It's weird, like, when you see all these random scenarios that could pop up in your head, you know, like.
Speaker A:Like, you put yourself in danger a lot of times when you meet people online.
Speaker A:And that's the best.
Speaker A:That's the.
Speaker A:That, like, gets me every single time.
Speaker A:That's why it's just good.
Speaker A:Just go ahead and give me some Vaseline and a good porn.
Speaker A:Just a good five minutes is all I need, because I'm holding out for a hero.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker B:Understandable.
Speaker B:Understandable.
Speaker A:I need a hero.
Speaker A:I'm so mad that you.
Speaker A:I. I needed that.
Speaker A:I really needed that.
Speaker A:Look at God.
Speaker A:Won't he do it?
Speaker B:Somebody said something the other day in a video, and it was meant to be funny, but I was like, I'm gonna start doing that.
Speaker B:Like, when you're, like, having a moment with somebody and there's laughing and there's, like, seeming flirtation and, like, you don't really wanna.
Speaker B:You don't really know exactly what the vibe is.
Speaker B:Like, I'm just start asking people, like, yeah, huh?
Speaker B:For sure.
Speaker B:So, like, do you wanna fuck me?
Speaker B:And it was so funny.
Speaker B:Like, in the moment when I was like, I think I'm gonna start doing that.
Speaker B:Cause number one, I think it's like, one of those things that'll really catch somebody off guard, but then also, like, it's like, well, as a matter of fact, like, you know, it'll definitely open the floor to, like, if that's the case, then, like, let it be known.
Speaker A:You ready?
Speaker A:Sorry.
Speaker B:Yeah, that too.
Speaker B:Definitely ready for some of that.
Speaker B:What's up, 41?
Speaker B:Almost a whole week.
Speaker A:Oh, my goodness.
Speaker A:And you haven't had any.
Speaker B:No.
Speaker A:Oh, wait till you get your bus.
Speaker A:Your first 41.
Speaker A:Then with someone.
Speaker B:It never happened.
Speaker B:And I got to be okay with that because I'm tired of, like, whatever we can.
Speaker B:Let's do the show.
Speaker B:Like, I can always be later.
Speaker A:What's up, King?
Speaker B:What's up, sir?
Speaker A:And what's up?
Speaker A:Try that one more time.
Speaker A:Listen, y' all here getting microphones and sounding foolish.
Speaker A:This is not just another podcast where two men are talking about and don't make any sense.
Speaker A:This is a real, real conversation for real adults.
Speaker B:What's Pawita?
Speaker A:What are we even talking about?
Speaker B:What are we even talking about?
Speaker A:Listen to it now, because you want to know what we're talking about.
Speaker A:What's up, King?
Speaker B:What's up, sir?
Speaker A:And what's up to all you out there.
Speaker A:Welcome to the what are we Even Talking About Podcast where Every other week.
Speaker B:We take turns choosing the topic unbeknownst to the other.
Speaker A:So the conversation is unrehearsed and authentic.
Speaker B:And most importantly, a safe space for friends to be vulnerable.
Speaker A:All right, so it's my turn to say it.
Speaker A:Yay.
Speaker A:So go ahead, get your favorite cocktails and mocktails and try to find out, what are we even talking about?
Speaker B:And I was gay with D. Williams vibes.
Speaker B:Like, what are we even talking about?
Speaker A:I really wish people will remember that when she started the how you doing?
Speaker A:That was like a slander to the gays.
Speaker A:Did you get her radio show where you were?
Speaker B:No.
Speaker A:Oh, yeah, that's.
Speaker B:I've only ever heard.
Speaker B:I've only ever heard the interview with her and Whitney because it kind of became so popular later on.
Speaker A:Baby, I'm telling you, I was at.
Speaker A:I was working at H M Them, and I was late for work.
Speaker A:And I was only late because I was sitting in the parking lot and I would not get out of my car because I want to hear this entire interview.
Speaker A:You talk like you know me.
Speaker A:You better watch your motherfucking mouth.
Speaker A:So anyway, how was your week, Mr. Birthday Man?
Speaker B:It has been a good week.
Speaker A:Ladies and gentlemen, you are now talking to someone who is officially 41.
Speaker B:Oh, yeah, bitch.
Speaker B:I'm 41 and I'm strictly for the ladies.
Speaker B:So my week has been really good.
Speaker B:So this is my last week with Progressive, and it was really cool.
Speaker A:It's okay.
Speaker B:Yeah, for sure.
Speaker B:At this point, fuck it.
Speaker B:But I.
Speaker B:It was really cool.
Speaker B:I worked really hard, kind of like trying to manage my inventory, to wind things down, to prepare for me to leave.
Speaker B:I worked a lot with my team, helping them out just because for most of the day, there wasn't much for me to do because I wasn't getting new claims of my own for, like, was it a week or was it two?
Speaker B:Yeah.
Speaker B:I didn't get claim new claims on my own for the last two weeks.
Speaker B:And so it was really cool.
Speaker B:Very chill.
Speaker B:I started some new routines.
Speaker B:I started walking 30 minutes a day.
Speaker B:I started drinking a gallon of water, which I drink a lot of water generally, but I don't measure it.
Speaker B:So I was like, I'll drink a gallon.
Speaker B:And then I think I just started, like, really trying to, like, get into this groove.
Speaker B:We talked about it briefly.
Speaker B:Like, I think as I'm getting older, not necessarily because of this particular age, but I'm starting to focus more on health.
Speaker B:So, like, mind, body, spirit, eventually finances.
Speaker B:We're.
Speaker B:We're steadily working on it.
Speaker B:Financial health is really important.
Speaker B:Ladies and gentlemen, have a budget, save some money, prepare for your future.
Speaker B:If you have one, send it to me, you know, And I like.
Speaker B:So, yeah, like, this week's been cool.
Speaker B:It's been bittersweet.
Speaker B:I definitely cried when I got off work yesterday.
Speaker B:I cried a few times.
Speaker B:I cried because beyond anything, as much as I have bitched and moaned and people have heard me complain about this job and how much I hate it, for a really long time I worked for a really incredible supervisor.
Speaker B:I can say genuinely that he is my friend and I've worked with an incredible team.
Speaker B:We've had some, some trade ins, some trade outs, some people have come and gone.
Speaker B:But, like, one of the people that I work with, she's been on the team since I started another person.
Speaker B:She came a little later, but, like, we formed a little trio and like, I'm going to miss working with them every day.
Speaker B:I still have all their numbers.
Speaker B:We'll, you know, do our best to keep in touch for as long as we can because, you know, we know how that goes.
Speaker B:But I don't know, I'm gonna miss working with them.
Speaker B:And so that was it.
Speaker B:Like, I had a really great conversation with my supervisor on my exit interview yesterday and he was just telling me about how proud he was for me and how happy he is for me and how, you know, I was like, okay, so I'm gonna go because, you know, I gotta work for the rest of the day.
Speaker B:And he sent this really sweet email and then at the end of the day, I was just like, damn.
Speaker B:Like, I come into work for two hours in the morning and then like, I don't work here anymore.
Speaker B:And it started to, like, become real and I was like, wow.
Speaker B:And so I cried a little bit y off work.
Speaker B:And then I cried a bit, a little bit when I got off work this morning because, like, me and my super advisor, like, I'm literally on teams with him on like a video call similar to this.
Speaker B:And he's talking to me and just pouring into me these really beautiful things.
Speaker B:And I'm like, okay, so I'm gonna go because this is about to get nasty.
Speaker B:Like, I'm snotting at this point and.
Speaker B:No, you're fine.
Speaker B:It was, it's laughable.
Speaker B:But yeah, it was cool.
Speaker B:And so now I'm just kind of in eager anticipation.
Speaker B:Try to be cool and chill about it, but also kind of excited slash nervous, but just grateful for, like, a transition and new opportunities and all the things that are to come with this new role.
Speaker B:Yeah, I'm Excited for Monday.
Speaker B:I wish that I would have had more time to just chill before starting into a new role.
Speaker B:I think that's always a good thing to do.
Speaker B:If you have the opportunity to do that, definitely take it.
Speaker B:But I didn't have the BTO and yeah, I had to get this money so I, I put in a full two weeks and yeah, I rocked it out and yeah, that's that.
Speaker B:How was your week?
Speaker A:Wait, wait, wait.
Speaker A:I have one question.
Speaker A:So at the very beginning you, you mentioned that there was someone that you knew from the past that you reached out on teams.
Speaker A:Has that.
Speaker A:That.
Speaker A:That was the end of that conversation.
Speaker A:I'd never.
Speaker A:You never talked to that person ever again?
Speaker A:Someone you knew from the past, you found out work for the same company so you reached out to them on teams and then.
Speaker B:Oh no.
Speaker B:So no, I didn't find out that they worked there.
Speaker B:They've literally been with progressive for like 10 plus years.
Speaker B:And so I knew that they had worked there for the longest, but it ended up being somebody else that referred me to the company when I got my job.
Speaker B:At the time, when I started, we weren't speaking.
Speaker B:We hadn't spoken for like months.
Speaker B:Once we started talking again, we had gone seven months without speaking.
Speaker A:Right.
Speaker B:We talked, I apologized.
Speaker B:We had a really deep heart to heart, you know, agreed that everything moving forward was cool, that we could continue to be cool.
Speaker B:We talked for maybe.
Speaker B:I remember their birthday is in March, so I wish them a happy birthday at the end of March.
Speaker B:And then I went to Charlotte last year because they moved to Charlotte.
Speaker B:I went to Charlotte last year to see sky and ended up being there for like from the 4th to the 8th.
Speaker B:And I text them and let them know that I was there and they text and said welcome to Charlotte.
Speaker B:And I said thank you.
Speaker B:And that's the last conversation that we've ever had.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:So, yeah.
Speaker B:And it's a weird thing you bringing that up now.
Speaker B:It's like, it's a weird thing because to me, in my mind, I wonder sometimes, like, because, you know, everybody has their own version of a story.
Speaker B:So I wonder in their mind is it like, well, did I, did I kind of drop the ball because I didn't try to connect with them while I was there.
Speaker B:To me, in my mind, like, you knew I was coming.
Speaker B:I told you I wanted to see you if I had the opportunity, but that I was going to see somebody.
Speaker B:It was just one of those weird things as to where like, I guess we just got used to not talking to each other.
Speaker B:So it wasn't hard to go back to not talking to each other, but also kind of coming to terms with the idea that maybe the friendship just died.
Speaker B:And we had to learn to accept that and be okay with that.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker B:But, yeah, that's what it is.
Speaker A:That's what it is.
Speaker B:How was your week?
Speaker A:You know, my week has been better than last.
Speaker A:It's still in this, it's still, it's not a, it's not like from hell, as I've told you, as I talked to you guys before, you know, I, I, I'm struggling right now with the idea of putting my dog down.
Speaker A:And the reason why I giggled just now is because before, like, Christopher was just saying before we started recording, he's gonna get old.
Speaker A:He's getting old and he's gonna end up in heaven and saying, you hold on.
Speaker B:Like.
Speaker A:He'S whining.
Speaker A:You can't hear him, can you?
Speaker B:I can't.
Speaker A:No, he, you will in a second.
Speaker A:He's crying, but I have him.
Speaker A:He has a reason to now.
Speaker A:And so, like, it's because he's back in the room, but I can't seem to help my, Help myself make this appointment to put him down.
Speaker A:But there are these moments like now, like he's, I can see him, he's laying in his bed, but he's sideways and he can't get up.
Speaker A:So he's, he'll whine until I pick him up so he can get back on his forelegs, you know, and then run around for a second until he topples over again and they just can't get back up and he just like, lays there with his arm stiff.
Speaker A:So it's, it's, it's, it's between that and, like, the idea of, like, letting go of, oh, my God, you can't hear him.
Speaker A:He is.
Speaker B:The only time I ever hear him is when he's like, pawing across the floor.
Speaker B:Like, I'll hear his claws on the floor, but I don't hear him in the other room.
Speaker A:And for anybody who's ever lost a dog, like, I, I didn't.
Speaker A:I.
Speaker A:My first dog that I've ever had that passed away in the house.
Speaker A:I was, that was really rough for me, but it wasn't as rough as I think it's going to be losing this one.
Speaker A:So I've been off and on, in the mood, out of the mood for that.
Speaker A:My mom was just here.
Speaker A:We celebrated my uncle's birthday the same day Yaya's birthday was that shout out to the gift the guest we just had for the last episode.
Speaker A:And.
Speaker B:I'm sorry.
Speaker A:Go ahead.
Speaker A:And it's.
Speaker A:It's been, you know, like, it's been some.
Speaker A:Some revelations that I've been having besides, like, letting go of, you know, Wilson is also, like, attached to me and my ex, like, I've had him, my ex got him for me, so he's probably like, the last thing that's, like, lingering since that last relationship.
Speaker A:And also, like, I'm kind of letting go of the idea of how I want to meet somebody new because I just had like, an altercation with a.
Speaker A:With a person that I'm not going to go into detail here, but just know that just like you said that we don't really know what other people's opinions are of me.
Speaker A:Of.
Speaker A:Are of us.
Speaker A:It.
Speaker A:You know, what did I do or what did I say to trigger that crazy reaction that I got from that person?
Speaker A:Because I know I didn't do what I was accused of, but something triggered that.
Speaker A:And I don't know if it was just something that I did or some other external behavior that he was doing prior to me being there or whatever.
Speaker B:Right.
Speaker A:But it's just always I'm like, right now as I'm approaching 45, and I just said, like, in the last episode, like, things for me happened in the increments of 10, but in the years of five, this is now 40.
Speaker A:We're going into 45.
Speaker A:So now we're about to see.
Speaker A:I feel like a different version of me is.
Speaker A:Is emerging, and that's how I feel right now.
Speaker A:So it's.
Speaker B:It's.
Speaker A:It's up and down, and that's going to happen for this next week, and that's usually how it goes.
Speaker A:Plus, right now, for those of you who don't know, we're experiencing a full moon in Aries, and so watch out, because my moon is also in Aries.
Speaker A:Yeah, my moon is also.
Speaker A:Might that be the one that.
Speaker A:Be the one who.
Speaker A:Ready to pop off?
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:My son is.
Speaker A:My son is Libra.
Speaker A:My moon is Aries.
Speaker A:So therefore, I am always having this conversation with myself.
Speaker A:Like, maybe let's give him the benefit of the doubt.
Speaker A:You know, let's.
Speaker A:Let's.
Speaker B:There's two sides to every story.
Speaker A:And the other side of the moon, the Aries is saying, nah, that what he said.
Speaker B:I was literally thinking, nah, that you have no idea.
Speaker B:Nah, that.
Speaker A:Exactly.
Speaker A:Yeah, exactly.
Speaker A:And my Scorpio rising is like, just pay attention to the details, you know?
Speaker A:So, like, that's what I'm in this transitional period right now and during this moon.
Speaker A:And I think it's also something, the eclipse that's happening in Virgo or some like that is just all this stuff is channeling a lot of different energy right now that I'm trying to understand better than I've ever understood before.
Speaker A:So yeah, yeah, yeah, I.
Speaker B:With that one thing I can say that I'm really working on just because I feel like it's about fucking time, you know, no other reason.
Speaker B:I just feel like it's about fucking time.
Speaker B:But I'm working on being more confident, you know, having been somebody who for a very great portion of my life struggle with low self esteem and then got to a point as to where I felt like I kind of worked through that.
Speaker B:But like, you know, the self love still wasn't, you know, self loving in all the ways that it could.
Speaker B:And now getting to a place, that's where I can genuinely say like, I love myself and I appreciate the value of myself.
Speaker B:And when I look in the mirror, you know, I like this, this is cool.
Speaker B:We do our thing.
Speaker B:And so like I. I'm in a much better place, but I want to get to a place as to where how I express myself, how I show up, my personality, just everything just kind of exudes that because I feel like that's still somewhat of a struggle area.
Speaker B:I. I've never really gotten into the introvert versus extrovert conversation in the full scheme of it, just because I feel like I fall kind of sort of in the middle.
Speaker B:I'm not completely closed off, but I'm also not completely outgoing, but like I want to be.
Speaker B:And so that's something that I'm working on.
Speaker B:With that being said, being that it is Libra season.
Speaker B:My birthday has passed, but it is still Libra season.
Speaker B:As a Libra, I will be celebrating the entire season long.
Speaker B:I decided that on this evening I'm going to stick with because I was questioning myself for a moment.
Speaker B:Sometimes I'm going to be real and I'm going to let y' all in.
Speaker B:Sometimes I feel like this or that falls flat.
Speaker B:I told BJ that earlier, but you know, we're going to rock with it tonight.
Speaker B:We are going to give you a little this or that.
Speaker B:But because it is Libra season, we're going to call this this or that the sexy edition.
Speaker A:Oh, sexy time.
Speaker B:So PJ, I'm going to ask you 10 questions really quickly.
Speaker B:Give me your response and then I will give you mine.
Speaker B:Lights on or lights off?
Speaker A:Lights on.
Speaker B:Same.
Speaker B:I Want to see you, baby, and I want you to see me.
Speaker B:All of it.
Speaker A:All of it.
Speaker A:All of it.
Speaker A:All of.
Speaker A:All of it.
Speaker B:Slow and sensual or rough and passionate?
Speaker A:Slow.
Speaker B:He's like, wait a minute.
Speaker A:He was like, now that you're rich, dick.
Speaker A:It's the passionate part.
Speaker A:I'm a passionate person.
Speaker A:So I. I am.
Speaker A:I was like, slow and sensual.
Speaker A:Yeah, let me.
Speaker A:Let me lick on all the parts.
Speaker A:But no, it's actually.
Speaker A:I'm actually pretty aggressive in bed.
Speaker A:So it's really rough and passionate.
Speaker A:I'm rough too, but I'm very passionate.
Speaker B:Like, look, we're two for two.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker B:Morning quickie or late night marathon?
Speaker A:Late night marathon.
Speaker B:Same run me that.
Speaker B:Run me all of that.
Speaker A:Let's.
Speaker B:Let's turn it into a morning after the late night.
Speaker A:Yeah, get out of.
Speaker A:Get out of my face with your bad breath.
Speaker A:No, I'm good.
Speaker A:I'm good.
Speaker B:Topless.
Speaker B:Well, this doesn't really apply.
Speaker B:Okay, let's say bottomless, bottomless selfies or full body mirror pics.
Speaker A:So I just do full body picks, period.
Speaker A:I don't need the mirror.
Speaker A:I know how to position.
Speaker B:I feel like I've talked about it here I have a colostomy bag and I'm not necessarily ever trying to let anybody see that.
Speaker B:So the best you're going to get from here is like, waist down, you might get a nice video of me stroking this sausage.
Speaker B:Let's see.
Speaker A:Sausage.
Speaker B:Sausage.
Speaker A:But you know what?
Speaker A:Before you go any further, before you go any further, I want to say this right.
Speaker A:I am a nudist.
Speaker A:So I know there are some people who don't like sending pictures out, who obviously don't send.
Speaker A:No face, no case, but I don't care.
Speaker A:Like, my new.
Speaker A:My nude body is not something to be ashamed of.
Speaker A:My.
Speaker A:My straight friends, gay friends, whoever.
Speaker A:People who live in my building have seen me naked from one point, another.
Speaker A:I've gone to the mailbox downstairs on the.
Speaker A:I live on the fourth floor.
Speaker A:I have to walk downstairs four flights of stairs.
Speaker A:Somebody.
Speaker A:People have seen me naked in this building.
Speaker A:It doesn't bother me.
Speaker A:So, like, I have sent pictures out with my face booty butt naked.
Speaker A:I'm not doing that with everyone, but I.
Speaker A:It doesn't bother me.
Speaker A:And somebody asked, oh, you must be really out there, because damn, like, so you got the face and the case.
Speaker A:And I'm like, you see what you see, so you know it.
Speaker A:I'm not disappointed about what I got, but it's also like, I'm a nudist.
Speaker A:It doesn't bother me.
Speaker B:And if I can get there, I would love to get there.
Speaker B:I don't know that I ever will, but I would love to if I could.
Speaker B:I'll say that it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a desire.
Speaker B:Next question.
Speaker B:Public quick thrill or private all night session?
Speaker A:I do like public behavior.
Speaker B:I'm scary.
Speaker B:I'm gonna keep it real.
Speaker A:I mean, I, I, I wouldn't be me if I, if I wasn't being honest about this portion.
Speaker B:No, I get it.
Speaker A:Yeah.
Speaker A:Yeah.
Speaker A:I like.
Speaker A:And it's not the quick thrill like I on my roof, I outside, I in alleys.
Speaker B:I would like it if I knew I could do it in a space where I could get away with it.
Speaker B:But I don't ever want to have to be in that space constantly, like on a, like on edge, worried about, like, if I'm gonna get caught.
Speaker B:That's what throws me off about what.
Speaker A:What we're not gonna do.
Speaker B:And it may be it, maybe it's where I live also.
Speaker B:You gotta say what we're.
Speaker A:I was gonna say I'm not like them Atlanta girlies who keep getting caught in Piedmont park or whatever they are.
Speaker A:Like, I'm not trying to go to jail, but it's like, right.
Speaker B:Very bad.
Speaker A:You know, I like, if I'm doing outside, I'm doing outside in my hallway, in my, of my building or like in a space that I know that I am okay being outside doing.
Speaker A:Not just some random, oh, we're in the back.
Speaker A:We're in the back of the store.
Speaker A:Let's go ahead and fudge.
Speaker A:Like, nah, like a fit room.
Speaker B:Walmart out three.
Speaker A:Like.
Speaker B:But I've spoken in Target.
Speaker A:No, I'm not doing that.
Speaker B:So with that.
Speaker B:And this is such a weirdo, and I know that.
Speaker B:So for all you listeners out there, understand that I'm aware whispering in your ear or scratching down your back.
Speaker A:So I, if you would have said biting, that's, that's the option for me.
Speaker A:Because I'm a biter.
Speaker A:If I.
Speaker A:And I, I bite and I growl, but I will whisper the nastiest in your ear.
Speaker B:Yeah, give me that.
Speaker B:Because if you scratch me, I might punch you.
Speaker A:Yeah.
Speaker A:And it's like, and it's like, no, let's continue with this.
Speaker A:And it's like, it's like, you know, you nasty motherfucker.
Speaker A:Shut up.
Speaker A:You know, it's like, it's like degrading.
Speaker A:And I also like to be degraded in a way.
Speaker A:So it's like, I'M I'm telling you, I. I'm telling you how good it is.
Speaker A:I want you to tell me what you're doing with me presently.
Speaker A:Like, I don't want you asking questions.
Speaker A:I. I want you to say, I'm giving this to you, you know, I want you to feed it to me mentally make me physically in my.
Speaker A:Physically feel it and mentally feel it.
Speaker A:That's the way I get.
Speaker B:I too want it to be fed to me with that.
Speaker B:I was going to say interestingly, I am becoming more open minded to.
Speaker B:That you got sick of.
Speaker B:Just put it here, just put it here, right here.
Speaker B:I'm becoming more open minded to that.
Speaker B:I think for a really long time my struggle area is the only person that I've ever been in experience with that wanted me to do that.
Speaker B:As far as the degrading was somebody that I at the time was in a relationship with and cared deeply for.
Speaker B:And for me I'm like, yeah, this feels like some shit that you do with a slut.
Speaker B:Not somebody that you're gonna look at later and kiss passionately and tell darling, I love you.
Speaker B:So I think that's been the disconnect for me.
Speaker B:Like I've never really had a full, especially as I've got older, a full opportunity to be like just down and dirty on some whole with a random.
Speaker B:So I think if it was from that place I'd be like, yeah, get on your knees, you dirty little.
Speaker B:This what you hear?
Speaker A:See, I like that.
Speaker B:Like, yeah, like definitely that.
Speaker B:But I don't, like I haven't had the opportunity.
Speaker B:So it's like eh.
Speaker A:And it's like Jill Scott said, if you can tell me what to do, then you can tell me what to do.
Speaker A:But if you can't.
Speaker A:Yeah, the who the you like, who are you calling?
Speaker B:Like, I'm not calling you very much.
Speaker B:Like, you know, you came over here for this dick.
Speaker B:Turn that TV off.
Speaker B:Like, like, like very.
Speaker B:Like, yeah, for sure.
Speaker B:But before, before I go too deep.
Speaker B:Let's keep going.
Speaker A:We were trying to dig deep last.
Speaker B:Week but you know, we did that digging, zigging.
Speaker B:So getting teased or doing the teasing.
Speaker A:I'm.
Speaker A:I'm a teaser.
Speaker B:Me too.
Speaker B:But I'm ready for it to be the other way around.
Speaker B:If I'm being honest.
Speaker B:Like at this point I think this is my era of receiving in the ways that I can.
Speaker B:Because as we previously discussed, I cannot receive in certain ways.
Speaker B:And that's okay, that's.
Speaker A:That's just also part of my control.
Speaker A:Like I.
Speaker A:When it Comes to sex.
Speaker A:I am, I am a control freak.
Speaker A:So like, sure, like it's hard for me to actually be submissive.
Speaker A:So if I choose to be submissive to you, understand.
Speaker A:And don't take it for granted because it will switch in the moment.
Speaker A:You stay or do something.
Speaker B:Switch.
Speaker A:Okay, what did TLC say?
Speaker A:Switch.
Speaker A:Yeah, exactly.
Speaker B:Don't take no mess from nobody.
Speaker A:Switch.
Speaker A:Literally.
Speaker A:One of my favorite TLC songs.
Speaker B:I love that song too.
Speaker B:So with that one passionate kiss or a long deep massage.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:To give or receive?
Speaker B:I don't know, it doesn't specify.
Speaker B:I'm not necessarily specified.
Speaker B:I would say receive.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:To receive.
Speaker A:Then give me a massage.
Speaker B:Give me a kiss.
Speaker B:Let me tell you something.
Speaker B:I want to in universe if you are listening.
Speaker B:I want to make out so bad.
Speaker B:Like I like also like laid up on the couch, high school shit.
Speaker B:I want to make out.
Speaker A:You just want to feel outcaged, don't you?
Speaker B:I want to make out.
Speaker B:Play with my nipples.
Speaker B:Like touch me in the morning.
Speaker A:Like, do something.
Speaker A:Come on, Diana.
Speaker A:Like, do something.
Speaker B:Do something to me.
Speaker B:Like I want to make out.
Speaker B:I'm not going to cry.
Speaker A:And so the thing is I'm an excellent kisser.
Speaker A:So like kissing for me is like second nature.
Speaker A:Second nature.
Speaker A:So I just.
Speaker A:Okay, come on.
Speaker A:DC3.
Speaker B:No, that was when they were still four.
Speaker B:Okay, still for this.
Speaker A:That was right song number one too.
Speaker A:But like I. I'm an excellent kisser.
Speaker A:And I, and I, that's.
Speaker A:That's the reason why I really don't do randos that often.
Speaker A:Because yeah, I.
Speaker A:If I can't kiss you, I can't.
Speaker A:You whether you're me or I'm you, I can't do it because there's no intimacy involved and I can't, I can't look at you.
Speaker A:Which is why lights are on, you know, or some light, you know, as you can, you know, for those of you can see the visuals.
Speaker A:My.
Speaker A:My apartment is like in my bedroom is a black light and I had spray painted glow in the dark green across where like you see this here, this blue right above it?
Speaker A:I.
Speaker A:It's like a spray paint of green so it glows.
Speaker A:It's like a nice green strip and it looks pretty cool, you know.
Speaker A:And I like colors.
Speaker A:So if I can't see you, I don't want it.
Speaker A:I've been in situations where like, you know, we're in the dark and I start like.
Speaker A:And it's like complete in the dark.
Speaker A:And you immediately think I'm gonna put my.
Speaker A:I put my Mouth on something that felt a little bump up.
Speaker A:I don't know.
Speaker A:What's this?
Speaker A:What's this?
Speaker A:And I'm feeling it before I put my mouth on it.
Speaker A:I'm like, lights on, please.
Speaker A:And from there, that's when I learned to keep the lights on.
Speaker B:Got it.
Speaker A:That'll definitely do it.
Speaker B:That'll definitely do it.
Speaker B:You ain't gotta worry about me.
Speaker A:Don't you worry about that.
Speaker B:What I am curious about now.
Speaker B:And we are getting closer to the end of the questions, just to put that out there.
Speaker A:And I'm really curious about more than 10.
Speaker A:This feels like.
Speaker B:No, we're.
Speaker B:This is nine of 10.
Speaker B:So one on one intimacy or group play?
Speaker A:All right, I'm gonna cam down here.
Speaker A:So I have organized several group sessions.
Speaker A:I am into group play that I can watch.
Speaker A:Not necessarily join in, mostly because when I join in, I tend to steal the show.
Speaker A:Hello, I'm a library.
Speaker A:But I like one on.
Speaker A:I would rather one on one play.
Speaker A:Or maybe with an extra third that I can watch you and.
Speaker A:And them go at it.
Speaker A:Like, yeah.
Speaker B:And I think, hold on, I'm going back down our list because we were doing good for a while.
Speaker B:I know we said something different in regard to the massage and the kiss, and we.
Speaker B:I Basically, my answer was the same as yours as far as teasing, but I would like for it to be different.
Speaker B:But this is.
Speaker B:I think this is the first one where we've been, like, outright completely the opposite.
Speaker B:Because for me, this is the only reason.
Speaker B:I think in the instances.
Speaker B:And it's been a long time.
Speaker B:It's been a really, really long time.
Speaker B:Like, oh, to be back in my youth, like, but it's been a really long time.
Speaker B:But like, for me, I think anytime that I tried to include more than one person, I was two in my head.
Speaker B:And so I couldn't have fun.
Speaker B:I think it was very organized and meticulous.
Speaker B:You do this while he does this and this and this and like, I couldn't just like in the movies when you see it, it's just like, I just want it to be like a fusion of bodies and everybody.
Speaker B:Like, maybe I need to do it on drugs.
Speaker B:Who knows?
Speaker A:But I just.
Speaker B:I wanted it to be like an experience where it just felt like everybody was like, just melting into one another.
Speaker B:And it was like, I didn't know where your.
Speaker B:Whose hands these were and whose mouth that was.
Speaker B:And it just.
Speaker B:But it always just felt like, okay, you do this while you do this.
Speaker B:And I'm just kind of like, this is so Very.
Speaker B:So not lyric, but yeah.
Speaker A:Not literally, but.
Speaker A:So let me tell you how the best way that these start, right?
Speaker A:All right, so story time, but not story time.
Speaker A:All right, so as I get out.
Speaker B:My pen and pad, looks like he's.
Speaker A:Taking notes, which, ladies and gentlemen, he is.
Speaker A:But the best way that these start is honestly, like, the three or four.
Speaker A:You know, I prefer an odd number because I just prefer it for me because you four can do your thing and I could be out, right?
Speaker A:Or you two can do your thing and I could be out and just watch and join in when I can see it and recognize it.
Speaker A:When it's time to join in.
Speaker A:I think people force it so much and it becomes awkward because sometimes there's always going to be one person who feels left out.
Speaker A:And if that.
Speaker A:If all 3, 4, 5, or however many of y' all don't already have this kind of connection going beforehand.
Speaker A:Unless you're all a bunch of sluts and whores, which we promote here.
Speaker A:At least if you're.
Speaker A:If.
Speaker A:Unless you just like, okay, which is getting down with anybody and everybody.
Speaker A:Not everybody's like that.
Speaker A:And you got to make people feel comfortable.
Speaker A:You got to know what people like.
Speaker A:And it's a.
Speaker A:It just can't be forced because I've had some that was like, yeah, it felt like, okay.
Speaker A:It felt like a game of Twister.
Speaker A:Like, okay, I'm gonna go up here and you're gonna come over here.
Speaker A:And it just felt uncomfortable.
Speaker A:And then I've had some that were, like, mind blowing to the point where the other person.
Speaker A:While the other person is usually threesomes or I've had a couple of.
Speaker A:I've hosted seven people here at one time.
Speaker A:Here's me telling all of the more business that you guys are finding out.
Speaker A:I don't care.
Speaker A:Hey, listen, I don't care.
Speaker A:I'm about to be 45.
Speaker A:What y' all gonna do?
Speaker A:I'm still here.
Speaker A:Will you be.
Speaker A:I, I, that's.
Speaker A:We'll talk about the seven.
Speaker A:The seven that I had here.
Speaker A:The way my bedroom is set up back then is I had a couch in my bedroom.
Speaker A:So I, you know, there's, There's.
Speaker A:It's a love seat.
Speaker A:So, you know, it's a two to two to three seater.
Speaker A:And so like, two of us will watch while the other was get it on.
Speaker A:And whether you just like smoking our blunt or whatever have you and letting them have their fun and it just.
Speaker A:When somebody needs a break, it's like, tag team, I'm in, you know, and it's just like one of those things where it just.
Speaker A:Just naturally goes because either three of us know each other or we've all, like, tried to get to know each other at one form of.
Speaker A:One form of another, like in one way, because the community is really small, especially here in New York.
Speaker A:True.
Speaker A:You know, so, like, it's.
Speaker A:We've all.
Speaker A:And I.
Speaker A:And like I said before, and I'm never gonna.
Speaker A:I'm never gonna change this.
Speaker A:Like I told my cousin, God forbid something ever happens to me.
Speaker A:And someone tells you that your cousin did this?
Speaker A:Yes, I did.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Not even ashamed of it.
Speaker A:I'm.
Speaker A:I have been.
Speaker A:I have been around the block a time or three, you know, So I promote sexual freedom.
Speaker A:I promote, you know, sexual explorer.
Speaker A:Like, who.
Speaker B:We promote that here?
Speaker A:Yes.
Speaker A:Like, be who you are without shame.
Speaker A:Just don't accuse anybody of doing something that they didn't do.
Speaker A:Don't, like, do some kind of random drug in the bathroom and come back out a completely different person.
Speaker A:You know?
Speaker A:You know, things like that.
Speaker A:Be safe, you know, and if you do.
Speaker A:Do your thing, do your thing safely.
Speaker A:I believe.
Speaker A:I believe wholeheartedly in.
Speaker A:What is it?
Speaker A:Harm reduction.
Speaker A:You know, so, like, in safe spaces where if you.
Speaker A:If you do a little.
Speaker A:Little booger sugar.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Understand how you get when you do your little booger sugar.
Speaker A:You know, if you do a little other stuff.
Speaker A:We need to have a conversation first because you're not gonna bring other stuff into my house without me knowing.
Speaker A:But true that, I would rather.
Speaker A:I would rather you be somewhere where someone is going to care for you, because I've had someone.
Speaker A:We have this drug called G. For those of you who don't know G is ghb.
Speaker B:There's so many letters now.
Speaker B:Somebody said something to me the other day about T, and I was like, I've heard about K. What is G?
Speaker A:G is ghb.
Speaker A:So GHB is like the original G Date Red joke.
Speaker A:Right?
Speaker A:So it's a.
Speaker A:It's.
Speaker A:It's something that you can't drink alcohol with because you will pass out.
Speaker A:That's why it's called the date rape drug.
Speaker A:Right.
Speaker A:But it's something that keeps you awake.
Speaker A:It keeps you going.
Speaker A:It's like in a dosage bottle.
Speaker A:But you.
Speaker A:There are people who have really random effects.
Speaker A:And now that I think about it, maybe that's what it was.
Speaker A:There are people who have really random effects where their.
Speaker A:Their personality immediately changes.
Speaker A:Now that I really think about it, that's what it probably was.
Speaker A:Don't mind.
Speaker A:No, don't mind none of that.
Speaker A:Guys, you use your imagination.
Speaker A:What, you think I could be talking about something that previously just happened to me?
Speaker A:And some people have had heart attacks, some people have died, some people have OD'd, take too much, and you don't know what's going on.
Speaker A:So it's like I've had somebody g out at my house before.
Speaker A:He passed out in my bathroom, and he was facing the bat.
Speaker A:He, like, he's squatting on the bathroom on the toilet, facing the wall.
Speaker A:And I picked him up off my toilet, put him in my bed, put him in the blanket, like, turn the lights off.
Speaker A:And me and the other guy, we were out here in the living room.
Speaker A:And he woke up, was like, he had never been in a situation where someone took such care of him before.
Speaker A:So then he started developing feelings for me because he was like, you really care about me.
Speaker A:Oh, and like that laugh in the background.
Speaker A:No, honey, I didn't want to go to jail if you died.
Speaker A:So listen, prison, it's not good for me.
Speaker A:I feel like this is the longest answer to this question.
Speaker B:No, no, no.
Speaker B:Let me tell you how I just came up with Tim more.
Speaker B:But no, no dead ass.
Speaker B:These have to be rapid fire because, like, we have to be considerate.
Speaker B:All right, so I'm gonna ask you 10 questions really quick.
Speaker B:First thing that comes off your mind, don't explain.
Speaker B:You ready?
Speaker B:All right.
Speaker B:Deep throat or slope?
Speaker A:Deep throat.
Speaker B:Deep throat.
Speaker B:Biting the pillow or biting him.
Speaker A:Biting in.
Speaker B:Biting him.
Speaker B:Face down or face to ass?
Speaker A:Face to ass.
Speaker B:Face to ass.
Speaker B:Choking or pulling hair or beard?
Speaker B:Grabbing.
Speaker B:If bald.
Speaker A:Choking.
Speaker B:Choking as well.
Speaker B:Loud moans or whispered nastiness?
Speaker A:Whispered nastiness.
Speaker B:Loud moans.
Speaker B:That's our first different one.
Speaker B:Spit.
Speaker B:Spit or lube?
Speaker A:Spit.
Speaker B:Same.
Speaker B:I had to think about it for a reform.
Speaker B:I was like, yeah, same.
Speaker B:Watching yourself.
Speaker B:Watching yourself in a mirror or recording it for later?
Speaker A:According to my Dropbox.
Speaker A:Recording it for later.
Speaker B:Touche.
Speaker B:Sweat all over you or spit all over you?
Speaker A:Touche.
Speaker A:Was your answer as well?
Speaker A:Yes.
Speaker B:As far as recording.
Speaker A:It'S a.
Speaker A:Let's skip over at touche.
Speaker A:Okay, go ahead.
Speaker B:Go ahead.
Speaker B:Yeah, no.
Speaker B:Sweat all over you or spit all over you?
Speaker A:Spit.
Speaker B:I'm growing.
Speaker B:I think I want it to be spit before I die.
Speaker B:A sweat.
Speaker B:Hands tied or legs held up?
Speaker A:Hands tight.
Speaker B:Hands tight as well.
Speaker B:One more round or let's go to sleep.
Speaker A:Smoke.
Speaker A:Let's chill for a second.
Speaker A:Let's get a breather.
Speaker A:Let's get a drink.
Speaker B:It depends on.
Speaker B:It depends on the situation.
Speaker B:Like, if it's been a minute and I've been wanting you really, really badly.
Speaker B:Like, it's almost like dessert.
Speaker B:And I'm like a kid that, like, I just can't wait to get my dessert.
Speaker B:So it's like if, like there's been experiences, like, where I've just been, like, like, I know we just came, but, like, I can't stop kissing all over you.
Speaker B:Like, I'm like, I'm like, so aroused just to be here with you.
Speaker B:So, like, it definitely gives one more round if the person is right, if the experience is right, if all the elements are correct.
Speaker B:So, yeah, that was fun for me.
Speaker B:Check it out.
Speaker B:Join us next week for more is sexy this or that?
Speaker B:Because I think I'm just gonna keep that going for the remainder of the season.
Speaker B:I feel inspired, but.
Speaker B:And hopefully the universe here to be an inspire.
Speaker B:So for me to, okay, you know.
Speaker A:Have something out there, put it out there.
Speaker A:You never know.
Speaker B:I need it.
Speaker B:Feed me.
Speaker B:Feed me, Seymour.
Speaker B:Now, what do you have for me?
Speaker A:Mind you, we haven't even gotten to the topic, ladies and gentlemen.
Speaker A:Listen, we don't know what.
Speaker B:We don't know what we talking about.
Speaker A:So I'm gonna do something here that I've been doing on my social media, right?
Speaker A:So I'm.
Speaker A:So this is a new segment and this is just going to be for this month since this Libra season.
Speaker A:So this is going to be hashtag Dear Libra.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:So, so here is.
Speaker A:I mean, so lately I know my, my mind has been a little like, get up at my face or let's do better, you know, like really like hyper super aggressive.
Speaker A:But let me show like the softer side because right now we are into October and we are in the thick of it.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:Into the thick of it.
Speaker A:Into the thick of it.
Speaker A:And so like, not to say that September Libras aren't like genuine Libras because are actually more Libras than some of us are.
Speaker A:You really bring us in.
Speaker A:But like here, here in the October, I want to actually really focus on how each of us can just be.
Speaker A:Just not just do better, be better, but just like really think for a quick second.
Speaker A:So, Dear Libra, it's okay that things aren't perfect.
Speaker A:There's no such thing.
Speaker A:Like, we have to be okay with going with the flow and letting the flow be the flow.
Speaker A:Just like AKA the man in flow over here.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:So understand that they're.
Speaker A:Dear Libra, it's chill.
Speaker A:It's chill.
Speaker A:Like, we don't.
Speaker A:We're.
Speaker A:We're good with going, you know, wherever the wind takes us.
Speaker A:But we do need some kind of structure.
Speaker B:But sometimes just let it, let it.
Speaker A:Let it, let it, let it flow.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Dear Libra, wait, before you go to.
Speaker B:The next one, I just want to say thank you because you were talking.
Speaker A:To me for sure.
Speaker B:Like, yes, I receive it.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Dear Libra, take it from me.
Speaker A:It is okay to be alone.
Speaker A:We do not need to be attached to anyone but ourselves.
Speaker A:Because the more you try to attach yourself to someone else, the less you know about who you are as an individual.
Speaker A:So you can be a better shout out to that for that person.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:All right.
Speaker A:I have 25 of these.
Speaker A:Like I, I do.
Speaker A:I don't want to give them all out away.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Because I have a whole list.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:And as I'm scrolling, which one.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Also, so going off of what we just talked about, Dear Libra, embrace your inner freak.
Speaker A:For real.
Speaker A:Like, we are one of the freakier signs everybody gives Scorpio.
Speaker A:Scorpio is just outwardly nasty.
Speaker A:We're independently.
Speaker A:Okay, so like, and like, there are other signs.
Speaker A:Like Taurus is just like controllably nasty or sensual.
Speaker A:They're controllably sensual.
Speaker A:We are the epitome.
Speaker A:We fall under that.
Speaker A:The.
Speaker A:We're ruled by Venus.
Speaker A:So all of that love and beauty and sensuality and all that good.
Speaker A:But you know, embrace who you are.
Speaker A:Stop trying to be Mr.
Speaker A:Perfect.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:Be a little nasty.
Speaker A:You know, if you got a fart during sex, fart during sex.
Speaker A:Have a joke about it.
Speaker A:You know, laugh.
Speaker A:Please don't fart during sex.
Speaker B:I ain't gonna hold you.
Speaker B:That probably gonna turn me the home.
Speaker A:And you know, it turns out you'd be surprised at what people are turned on by when you just let all of this go.
Speaker A:Okay, I did.
Speaker B:Far note it.
Speaker B:I'm sorry, go ahead.
Speaker A:Dear Libra, speaking of, speaking of, you be surprised about what people like.
Speaker A:Understand this one thing.
Speaker A:Everybody does not have to like you, period.
Speaker A:I want to repeat that again.
Speaker A:Dear Libra, everyone does not have to like you.
Speaker B:And that is exclamation point.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:You don't have to try to make them your friend.
Speaker A:You don't have to try to win them over as a friend.
Speaker A:You don't have to try to change their mind.
Speaker A:You don't have to do anything.
Speaker A:If they don't like you, let them.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:Because I saw this post earlier that says, you tell me you miss me, but remember, you're the one who pushed me away.
Speaker A:It was something like that.
Speaker A:I'm misquoting It.
Speaker B:Listen.
Speaker B:But whatever.
Speaker B:Whatever the quote is, that sounds accurate.
Speaker B:I'm on board with that.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Dear Libra.
Speaker A:Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker A:We're hopeless romantics.
Speaker A:Fantastic.
Speaker A:But let's be a hopeless romantic that actually satisfies both of our goals needs.
Speaker A:Not just yours or not just theirs.
Speaker A:We are a balance.
Speaker A:Let's actually learn to balance it.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:It's not about just them or just us.
Speaker A:Let's not be as selfish as we claim we are not.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:And lastly.
Speaker A:Oh, your face.
Speaker B:No, I'm.
Speaker B:Go ahead.
Speaker A:And lastly, I want to say this for real.
Speaker A:Libras.
Speaker A:Dear Libra, your life will get better when you understand these two letters.
Speaker A:When you put them together.
Speaker A:N and O. Dear Libra, just say no when you want to say no.
Speaker A:You don't have to do anything for anyone else to make them happy.
Speaker A:If it doesn't make you happy, if you don't want to do it, this.
Speaker A:Don't do it.
Speaker A:The fuck?
Speaker A:That's it.
Speaker A:Just don't do it.
Speaker A:No.
Speaker A:Complete sentence, Period, period, period.
Speaker A:You know, Etc.
Speaker A:Etc.
Speaker A:No, no, Absolutely the entire.
Speaker A:Not.
Speaker A:If you want to add that on there, make it a little bit more definite, do that.
Speaker A:But it's okay to say no.
Speaker A:They'll be good.
Speaker B:I would just like to say that for a while now, and it's so funny because every week, like, we're piling up episodes, like, we're almost at 20, and it's crazy, right?
Speaker B:I would like to say that up until this point, let's Do Better has been my favorite segment.
Speaker B:I would like to change that because Dear Libra loved it.
Speaker B:No notes.
Speaker B:Recommending it out to all my friends.
Speaker B:That was amazing.
Speaker B:So, yeah, thank you for that.
Speaker A:Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Speaker A:I love that.
Speaker A:Thank you.
Speaker B:That was amazing.
Speaker B:Sensational.
Speaker B:Yes.
Speaker A:So, yeah.
Speaker A:But question.
Speaker B:Yes, I'm ready.
Speaker A:What are we even talking about?
Speaker B:W A W E T A Dot podcast or Waita Dot podcast?
Speaker B:You know, don't laugh.
Speaker B:Why would you laugh?
Speaker B:Oh, my God.
Speaker A:Why would you laugh?
Speaker A:Oh, my God.
Speaker B:I don't know.
Speaker A:Go ahead, let me see.
Speaker B:No, like, you laugh because you like this bitch.
Speaker B:Still don't know, but I got you.
Speaker A:I got you.
Speaker B:So being that during the season, we are definitely wanting to embrace all things Libra because, you know, that's us.
Speaker B:And y' all don't really embrace us as you should any other time.
Speaker B:So we're gonna force you right now, like, you have no choice.
Speaker B:Embrace it, bitch.
Speaker B:But with that, what I want to talk about this week specifically, is so as most people know and of course we hear about all the negative things, but in the scheme of the things that people talk about in relation to Libras, a lot of times we hear about balance.
Speaker B:A lot of times we hear about indecision.
Speaker B:A lot of times we hear about our crave for harmony and justice and all of these different things.
Speaker B:This week, what I want to talk about is especially being that I know for me specifically, I can kind of note very specific examples of like, this transformational period that I'm in right now.
Speaker B:But if you listen back to previous episodes, there have been many conversations that we've had as to where you said that you felt like you were in a transformational period as well, and just, you know, just being able to feel it and believing that that was a part of your experience.
Speaker B:What I want to talk about right now is what you believe has been some of the things that have.
Speaker B:And I'm trying to format because I had it like, you know how you have it, and then it's like, wait a minute, I have it.
Speaker A:I believe it's going to be perfect.
Speaker B:And now I'm just like, did I lose it?
Speaker B:No, you're.
Speaker B:You're right, Dearly bro, you're absolutely correct.
Speaker B:But now I'm like, wait, did I lose it?
Speaker B:Are we here?
Speaker B:But yes, just speaking in regard to some of the struggles that we face when it comes to having that need for balance with where we are right now.
Speaker B:What are some of the things that you feel are pushing you in the direction that you need to go?
Speaker B:And what do you feel are some of the things that are holding you back?
Speaker B:And beyond that, what do you believe is going to help you?
Speaker B:I know a three part question.
Speaker B:What are some.
Speaker B:Bitch, let me get my pin.
Speaker B:What.
Speaker B:What are some of the things that you feel will help balance you out and put you closer to being in the middle?
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:You want me to start answering?
Speaker B:Yes.
Speaker B:So the first, the first part of the question, specifically, like, what are some of the things, the positive things that you feel like are going on that are like kind of pushing you in the direction that you see yourself going or maybe feel that you are supposed to be going right now?
Speaker A:So, like, example of like the last episode, right, sure.
Speaker A:So like, I enjoy being in spaces with new people and especially when I hear that wonderful thing of like, pj, don't change.
Speaker A:Like, there are parts of me that always feels like I need to change because something's wrong with me.
Speaker A:Because if there.
Speaker A:If there was nothing wrong with me, there would be someone here on this bed, on this couch.
Speaker A:There would be somebody calling me.
Speaker A:My.
Speaker A:My phone would be blowing up.
Speaker A:Somebody would be like, hey, let's go hang out.
Speaker A:Like somebody would do something.
Speaker A:What is.
Speaker A:Is there wrong with me?
Speaker A:But also, hey, I've become such of a recluse that I can't blame no one for reaching out to me because some.
Speaker A:Hey, if.
Speaker A:If I'm not at the top of your.
Speaker A:Your brain, you're gonna forget about me.
Speaker A:And that's perfectly fine.
Speaker A:You know that's right.
Speaker A:Also, like, leads into my, like, depression and things like that.
Speaker A:So I think that what's been helpful is being in spaces or being around people who can.
Speaker A:I don't want to say it this now because now it just sounds.
Speaker A:Again, it.
Speaker A:It all depends on someone else seeing my validation, like, you know, being validated by other people.
Speaker A:Oh my God.
Speaker A:Now I feel like this is a therapy session.
Speaker A:All of us, all.
Speaker A:The first question just makes me want to sit here and have.
Speaker A:Let me go make some tea.
Speaker A:Would you like some tea?
Speaker A:I will have a small tea, but.
Speaker A:Okay, so.
Speaker A:Okay, ask me the question one more time.
Speaker B:Yeah, so basically what we're talking about specifically is like, you know, with us as Libras and how we think long for balance and harmony.
Speaker B:What do you feel like right now as far as this transformational period that we've been in and all of the directions that we're heading into?
Speaker B:What do you think are the things this.
Speaker B:And this is part one of the question.
Speaker B:What do you think are the things that are.
Speaker B:Have been helpful or that are helpful right now as far as that period are concerned?
Speaker B:It's still the same answer.
Speaker B:Okay.
Speaker A:But it's also added with a little bit of creativity.
Speaker A:So as long as I'm remaining creative and as long as I'm doing something that's not money, that's not like Monday through Friday or Saturday through Sunday, the same shit every single day.
Speaker A:Like, I know, like, tomorrow I have a funeral service.
Speaker A:I know I might have to have one because it's the weekend.
Speaker A:I normally do more funerals on the weekends than the weekdays because I teach, but I haven't started teaching yet.
Speaker A:And that's one of the things that really does help me.
Speaker A:Being outside amongst the kids, doing things creative.
Speaker A:So, like, those are the things that I do know.
Speaker A:Help.
Speaker B:And I was gonna say whether this feels like a therapy session or not, bitch, you're gonna engage in this conversation the way you had interrogated me.
Speaker B:Motherfucking Episode two.
Speaker A:But this still ain't that.
Speaker B:This still ain't that it's not.
Speaker B:You're right, it's not.
Speaker B:And I don't know, like, that's gonna have to be that.
Speaker B:It will be a moment where I have to really prepare.
Speaker B:That'll be the one time where you like, wait a minute, bitch.
Speaker B:Is that a portfolio you.
Speaker A:But yeah.
Speaker B:So that's why you was asking me.
Speaker A:All these questions offline.
Speaker A:Gotcha.
Speaker B:So for me, I'll say.
Speaker B:I think lately, for me, I have been taking risk.
Speaker B:And it's so funny because I am so.
Speaker B:I thrive in spaces and I.
Speaker B:And I want to be different.
Speaker B:Like, I'm striving to be better in all the ways that I want to be better.
Speaker B:Not because I feel like other people are better than me, but just because there are certain things about myself that I desire to have that are different and better.
Speaker B:With that being said, I have always thrived in spaces of guarantee, in spaces of certain, in spaces of knowing what to expect.
Speaker B:And okay, I put this here, so it's gonna be there when I go back to pick it up.
Speaker B:And like, everything just kind of flows a certain way.
Speaker B:And I think lately, taking risk, taking myself outside of my comfort zone, pushing myself, challenging myself to do things differently from maybe how I would normally do them, has definitely been something that has been benefiting me a great.
Speaker B:But then also, if I'm being honest, kind of creating some very structured routines.
Speaker B:As much as I say that first part, I am the type of person as to where eventually at some point, and it always happens, I've been like this my whole entire life.
Speaker B:I get to points where I feel like I'm in a rut and like, I need something to pull me out of it.
Speaker B:Like, I get into these.
Speaker B:There's gotta be more to life than this kind of head space.
Speaker B:Because everything starts to feel very routine and things start to feel very mundane.
Speaker B:And I'm like, okay, bitch, I need to get off the this.
Speaker B:Like, I need to get off of this wheel.
Speaker B:Like, something has to be greater or better or different or more exciting than this.
Speaker B:And so with that, I think as much as I do, like, order, as much as I do, like to know what to expect, I feel that it's always been a struggle area for me, based on that factor to be scheduled to be routined, to feel like I'm like, okay, at 6:00 clock I'm gonna wake up and at 7:00 clock I'm gonna do this.
Speaker B:And it Like, I've never been able to be that person where you watch these videos where people day in the life and you kind of see them giving you the timestamps.
Speaker B:I've never been that person.
Speaker B:However, I'll say, like recently I've started to fine tune some stuff like that.
Speaker B:Like I've started being very intentional about my planner.
Speaker B:I've always had a planner, but I've never really kept up with it.
Speaker B:It was like almost like one of those things that I thought was a cute thing to want to do, but I never really did it.
Speaker B:Lately I've been like really in my planner and really like organizing my days and my weeks and maybe even my months just so I can feel like I have a greater sense of structure to everything that's going on.
Speaker B:And that's honestly been helping me as far as just feeling better about my overall experience.
Speaker B:Waking up at 6 o' clock in the morning and challenging myself not to push snooze and then feeling good about the fact that I didn't and then actually getting to work on time and then actually, you know, doing all the things that I say that I want to do within my day.
Speaker B:That's.
Speaker B:Those have been things that have been really, really helpful for me.
Speaker B:And especially going into this new role because I do start a new job on Monday.
Speaker B:I definitely think that it's kind of give me.
Speaker B:It's almost got to be like.
Speaker B:Because a lot of times things can be exciting when you're doing something new, but they can also be really scary.
Speaker B:And I think this is going to give me the comfort that I need just in regard to.
Speaker B:Oh well, this is just another computer with another monitor with another set of people.
Speaker B:But I'm already in the zone.
Speaker B:I've already kind of created this atmosphere for myself to do well and to have the type of day that I want to.
Speaker A:So yeah, you know how they've always say, they always say like the reason why Libras are so like what, what is it?
Speaker A:The, the.
Speaker A:The jack of all trades.
Speaker A:Because you know, we, we thrive for something new each.
Speaker A:Every.
Speaker A:It's like every cycle or something.
Speaker A:We thrive for something new and something.
Speaker A:That's why we can do so many different things at one time because we get bored really easily and really quickly.
Speaker A:So I think that's healthy.
Speaker B:I wish that I would have been able to have like 10 majors in college so that I would be like in a space because I've always wanted to be that person who was like, okay, I've done this.
Speaker B:Now I want to go do something else.
Speaker B:Like I did.
Speaker B:You know, I was a lawyer for five years and that was fun.
Speaker B:And then I went on to be a doctor for five years, and that was cute.
Speaker B:And now I'm an Olympic swimmer.
Speaker B:And then, you know, that was cute and fun.
Speaker B:And I got all the medals.
Speaker B:Look at that.
Speaker B:How awesome.
Speaker B:And now I'm a waitress, which take that how you will, but like, you know, just like having like the.
Speaker B:All the different fruits of life and just being able to have all the different experiences, because I think once we feel limited or once we feel bound to something, it kind of becomes unfulfilling.
Speaker B:It's like, well, this is what you chose, and now you're stuck with it.
Speaker A:Sidebar.
Speaker A:Do you know what your.
Speaker A:You know what your life path number is?
Speaker B:I feel like at one point I did.
Speaker B:I might have the chart somewhere here.
Speaker A:You don't have to really.
Speaker B:I was like, I don't.
Speaker B:Right now all you have to do.
Speaker A:Is just add your date of birth together so all the digits in your date of birth to a single number.
Speaker A:Like, my life path is a number five, and number five, you add 10, 22, 19, 80, all together, it comes up to a five, and it really describes me to a T. So what are we adding?
Speaker B:All right, so am I adding the 9 plus the 27 plus the 84.
Speaker A:Plus, plus the 1 plus the 9 plus the 8, plus the 4.
Speaker B:Oh, all the numbers individually.
Speaker A:All the numbers individually.
Speaker A:Add them all up and then to whatever collective number and then add that number up till you get to a single single digit.
Speaker A:Unless it's a power number.
Speaker A: So like a power number like: Speaker A:So like mine is a five, so mine is about.
Speaker A:So you're a four.
Speaker A:So look up.
Speaker A:So in your, in your, in your.
Speaker A:In your spare time or now, why.
Speaker B:Are you talking about it?
Speaker A:Like, what do you mean life path number four.
Speaker A:So my life path number is five, which means I. I prefer freedom, I prefer creativity.
Speaker A:I do not.
Speaker A:Do not like to be bound to anything thing.
Speaker A:If you do.
Speaker A:If you're the type of person who keeps.
Speaker A:Who tries to lock me in, it's.
Speaker A:It suffocates me and I can't do it.
Speaker A:Whether it's professional, whether it's.
Speaker A:Look, he's looking, ladies and gentlemen.
Speaker A:He's reading, ladies and gentlemen.
Speaker B:And I like what it says.
Speaker A:It makes me happy, you know, so like they.
Speaker A:That's why we people can sit here and talk about.
Speaker A:I don't believe in astrology.
Speaker A:I don't believe in numerous.
Speaker A:You don't have to believe in something that already exists.
Speaker A:That's something that is because, because if people would just pay attention to it and not try to break it down to a point where like, I don't believe this because this doesn't make sense because this is just anybody.
Speaker A:Yeah, but there, it's like, it's literally a blueprint to who you are.
Speaker B:She had just read me and it wasn't even, it wasn't even a whole.
Speaker B:It was just the AI overview.
Speaker B:Had just read me just that fast.
Speaker B:I'm going to tell you really quickly.
Speaker B:It says life path number four.
Speaker B:Individuals are the builders of the world.
Speaker B:Known for their strong sense of the discipline, hard work, practicality and loyalty.
Speaker B:They excel at creating solid foundations, taking a methodical step by step approach to life, and achieving goals through persistent effort.
Speaker B:Effort.
Speaker B:While their dedication is admirable, they must work on cultivating flexibility, avoiding rigility in their thoughts and actions, and managing stress and perfectionism to prevent negative health outcomes and relationship issues.
Speaker B:Use red.
Speaker A:Now I feel like, okay, let me read mine because now I pulled up mine as you.
Speaker A:So it says life path number five symbolizes freedom, adventure, change, characterizes by a.
Speaker A:Characterized by a restless spirit and love for new experiences.
Speaker A:Individuals in this path are adaptable, curious, drawn to exploration, often leading them to experiencing diverse careers, locations and relationships.
Speaker A:While naturally inspiring and persuasive, they can struggle to commit consistency and self discipline due their to.
Speaker A:Of their aversion to routine and potential discontent.
Speaker A:Did I not just say all of this already?
Speaker B:So everybody out there.
Speaker B:Get you a man that can read.
Speaker B:Get you a Libra.
Speaker A:And that one.
Speaker A:Take.
Speaker A:Look, I'm, I'm proud of myself.
Speaker B:Get your man that can read.
Speaker A:This dyslexia is.
Speaker A:I've worked on this.
Speaker A:All right, so back to what we were discussing.
Speaker B:Yes.
Speaker B:So the flip side of that question is we talked about the things that we feel like have been positively impacting the transformation, the transition, everything that we feel like we're seeking and moving towards.
Speaker B:What do you feel are some things that maybe you've been struggling with or maybe things that perhaps you're aware that you could or should be doing, but you just haven't gotten to that place yet of moving in that direction?
Speaker A:Let's just say like, I'm tired of paying for a membership that I don't go to.
Speaker A:Like I, I am.
Speaker A:I used to be so secure in my body and the way I looked, but that was when I was working at it, you know, but in order for me to actually go to the gym.
Speaker A:So here's the excuse number one.
Speaker A:Okay?
Speaker A:And I'm aware I'm aware.
Speaker B:Hold on.
Speaker B:Adhd.
Speaker A:Okay, listen.
Speaker A:Because this all ties together, y'.
Speaker A:All.
Speaker A:So in order for me to actually go to the gym, the place that I keep saying I need to get there, I would have to go to this specific gym because they're the only ones that will give me a key card that will allow me to go to the other gyms, because that's the gym that I signed up for originally.
Speaker A:So I don't have to go to the gym that's closest to me because they would say, hey, excuse me, you're in the system.
Speaker A:As with the balance.
Speaker A:The other gym won't do that, but they're all tied together.
Speaker A:It's just the way that I set it up.
Speaker A:It's just the way it is.
Speaker A:And my friend who works.
Speaker A:Works for this company told me that that's what I need to do.
Speaker A:I just never really go that way, but I would ride my bike there.
Speaker A:So in order for me to, like, feel better, the things that are holding me back are, number one, my excuses.
Speaker A:I make a million and one excuses why I don't do things.
Speaker A:Like I don't wash my dishes as often as I should because I believe I don't live by myself.
Speaker A:Apparently, there's someone else who lives here with me who will do all the cleaning for me.
Speaker A:And then eventually I might.
Speaker A:You know what?
Speaker A:I don't have any forks.
Speaker A:You know, I don't have any underwear.
Speaker A:I don't have any washcloths.
Speaker A:You know, like, it's gonna get done.
Speaker B:There's a.
Speaker A:There is.
Speaker A:Let me just go ahead and scan this.
Speaker A:Scan this camera around right here so you can see it.
Speaker B:You see?
Speaker A:Okay, this is all laundry that needs to get done.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:I live on the fourth floor of a walk up.
Speaker A:My excuse is I really don't feel like carrying all these bags up and down the stairs.
Speaker A:But guess what?
Speaker A:They eventually gotta get done down.
Speaker A:So I just need to.
Speaker A:That's what's getting in the way of me achieving a lot of things.
Speaker A:Excuses I make.
Speaker A:And I know what they are.
Speaker A:I know that they're excuses as they make them.
Speaker A:And then what do I do?
Speaker A:I sit down and lay down, say, let me play Fortnite for a little bit.
Speaker A:You know, which I've done better at by not playing as much.
Speaker A:So it has helped me do certain things that I need to do because I think Fortnite or playing the video game or whatever else, what I was doing was helping me in one way, like keeping me occupied where depression is not sinking in.
Speaker A:So it's keeping my mind occupied, but it's not helping me get the shit done that I need to get done.
Speaker A:Like, who wants to walk into a dirty house?
Speaker A:Like, I love walking into my bed being made.
Speaker A:I love walking into, like, you know, my dishes are clean.
Speaker A:I can cook something.
Speaker A:I literally have not cooked in, like, a full dinner.
Speaker A:I did, like, a week ago, but, like, before that was, like, months.
Speaker A:Months.
Speaker A:Months.
Speaker A:About four to five months the last time I cooked something for myself.
Speaker A:So in order for me to stop making these excuses, I actually have to just get in the way of these.
Speaker A:The reasons why I make these excuses.
Speaker A:And it's boring.
Speaker A:Exactly.
Speaker A:That's why he's.
Speaker B:Shut up.
Speaker A:Dumb.
Speaker A:Continue.
Speaker A:What about you?
Speaker B:No.
Speaker B:So for me, I think my response, interestingly enough, I feel like it's two sides of the same coin.
Speaker B:One is I spend way too much time talking about what I want to do as opposed to actually doing anything, which kind of falls along that same vein of making excuses.
Speaker B:And then also, if I'm not talking about it, I'm planning for it.
Speaker B:I am such a planner.
Speaker B:I will literally write out a budget, and I will do a whole diagram, and I have all the things in motion to get the things done.
Speaker B:And then when it comes down to it, I'm like, I don't feel like it.
Speaker B:I'll try again later.
Speaker B:And what I'm telling myself in the moment is, is that I'm showing myself grace by not actively doing something that I don't feel like I'm aligned with in the moment.
Speaker B:It's like, oh, I don't.
Speaker B:I'm tired.
Speaker B:Or I just don't have the energy or maybe not right now.
Speaker B:So I'm showing myself grace by not doing it.
Speaker B:But at the same time, here we are months later, and I still want to have done or want to be doing it by now, and it's still not getting done.
Speaker B:So it's like, am I doing myself a favor by giving myself that grace and not pushing myself to do something that maybe in a moment I don't necessarily feel as strong about?
Speaker B:But once I'm there, it's like, okay, well, cool.
Speaker B:Because similar to this, we both had moments where we have felt maybe really, really shitty and really, really tired.
Speaker B:And, like, we maybe didn't necessarily feel like we could show up here.
Speaker B:But then once we got here, we felt really good and it made us feel better having the conversation and the energy floated.
Speaker B:It's like, o, that was so much better than I would have anticipated.
Speaker B:So definitely that for me, I think it's just like being that person that has so many ideas for things that I feel like I want to do and things that I feel like would put me in the position to be having better experiences.
Speaker B:Because, of course, the goal is always to make life as great as it can be.
Speaker B:Our lives to be the best that they possibly can be.
Speaker B:So what are the ways that I can do that?
Speaker B:And a lot of times, I, like you said.
Speaker B:I know.
Speaker B:It's just, I'm.
Speaker B:There's a disconnect when it comes to me putting forth the actual effort.
Speaker B:There's like a.
Speaker B:There's like a barrier.
Speaker B:It's like, oh, right here we can see it.
Speaker A:It's like when we were planning that we were planning this podcast, and we were like, you, you like, yo, like, if we're gonna keep playing this, yo, we're gonna.
Speaker A: Yeah, we're gonna do this in: Speaker A:Like, let's.
Speaker B:Let's just deadass.
Speaker A:Let's just start recording, like.
Speaker A:And we finally did it.
Speaker B:Yeah.
Speaker A:And we're like, almost 20 episodes in, you know, so, like.
Speaker B:Yeah.
Speaker A:And I think that we've progressively gotten better as we've gotten.
Speaker A:Doing as we've got.
Speaker B:Absolutely.
Speaker A:And I've gotten closer.
Speaker A:Like, there's, there's so much.
Speaker B:Outside.
Speaker B:Go ahead.
Speaker A:I need a hero.
Speaker B:Yes.
Speaker A:So, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker A:I, I, I, I, I resonate with that.
Speaker A:Very well.
Speaker A:Very well.
Speaker B:Yeah.
Speaker B:So to wrap it, or I was.
Speaker B:Yes, that's what I was gonna say.
Speaker B:To round it out.
Speaker B:What do you feel?
Speaker B:And of course, I, I know your answer.
Speaker B:I know my answer.
Speaker B:We're here together.
Speaker B:What do you feel are.
Speaker B:But for the audience, for the listener, what do you feel is a way that.
Speaker B:Okay, we said the areas that we feel like are helping us.
Speaker B:We said the things that we feel like we're doing that are beneficial.
Speaker B:Then we.
Speaker B:Beyond that, we named str.
Speaker B:Areas or ways that we feel like we are necessarily doing as well as we could in ways that we can improve.
Speaker B:What are some ways right now, based on what you know, because you said, okay, this is the good.
Speaker B:This is the not so great.
Speaker B:What are the ways that you feel like you can bring it together and find yourself at a more middle ground and to that place of balance as to where it's like, okay, this is good, and that's great.
Speaker B:And I do want to see more of that, but I don't want to overextend.
Speaker B:But these things, these are the areas that I want to kind of improve so that the scales can.
Speaker B:Oh, bringing it Back to the Libra.
Speaker B:But the scales can tip a little bit and then I can feel like I'm being more productive.
Speaker B:I can feel like I'm thriving a little bit more.
Speaker B:I can feel like I'm actually being able to appreciate how I feel about my life and my day and my experience.
Speaker A:You know what?
Speaker A:I think this is going to go back to the actual first episode about something that I said about you, which is like having an accountability partner, having someone who can like hold you accountable and say, you know, like you say, get on this ass.
Speaker A:Get on.
Speaker A:Get on the mic.
Speaker A:Like, you know, like we don't really feel like being.
Speaker A:See, I remember everything.
Speaker A:It's so sad to get on the mic.
Speaker A:It's crazy.
Speaker B:Did I really say that?
Speaker A:Yes, you did.
Speaker A:I was like, you know, it's people like you who were like, you know, things I don't feel like doing.
Speaker A:He's like, yeah, come on, let's go.
Speaker A:And so like I know from bringing back to Libra season like we are.
Speaker A:We work better in pairs.
Speaker A:And that's just saying like you but just saying anybody that I know is trying to achieve the same goal, how can we achieve it together for sure.
Speaker A:But then when it's like an individual thing, like let's say that there is no one else I don't know.
Speaker B:And that is okay.
Speaker B:That is perfectly acceptable.
Speaker A:That is perfectly acceptable for me.
Speaker A:It works better for me when someone holds me accountable.
Speaker A:Because if you don't, then like, like I tell people who, if any of my clients, they open ended shit does not work for me.
Speaker A:Give me a date that you need this.
Speaker A:And because if you give me an open ended, I am the king at procrastination.
Speaker A:I will wait until the very, very last minute and then I'm stressed out.
Speaker A:I. E. Some of our episodes recently have come out later.
Speaker A:I have waited to the very, very last minute to Ed Then I was getting stressed out because things were going the wrong way.
Speaker A:But had I started them like I was supposed to?
Speaker A:I. E. Highly melanated still has not put an episode out in a couple of weeks.
Speaker A:We've recorded an episode three weeks ago, two weeks ago, and I still have not recorded edited that episode.
Speaker A:But I know that they're feeling away because the third episode, flip it upside down.
Speaker B:The people who are really excited to hear it, they're like longing for it.
Speaker B:And then once they finally get it, it's going to be like, ooh, unwrap it this present.
Speaker B:Because like I had to wait a little longer, but it was still Exciting for them because it's like, oh, like, damn, I missed.
Speaker B:Give me that.
Speaker B:Waita.
Speaker B:Like, give me that.
Speaker B:You know what I'm saying?
Speaker B:Like, so, yeah, think about it.
Speaker A:I think, you know, and that's also the other thing.
Speaker A:In order for me to change it, I had to change my perspective.
Speaker A:And I always talk about how perspective is everything.
Speaker A:Like, so I really have to change how I talk about it because.
Speaker A:Dear Library, okay, your words are literal magic.
Speaker A:Libras.
Speaker A:Our words are magic.
Speaker A:Of all the other signs, our words are magic that makes.
Speaker B:That makes my heart smile because I know that to be true and how it's been showing up in my life lately.
Speaker A:So, yeah, yeah.
Speaker A:We are the only inanimate object for a reason.
Speaker A:Our words are magic.
Speaker A:We literally put our words into the machine.
Speaker A:It processes and then it comes out to be true.
Speaker A:Your mind creates how things are to go.
Speaker A:So in order for me to do that, I really do have to start speaking better about me getting these things done.
Speaker B:I was going to ask you in regard to what you said, and I'm going to give my answer.
Speaker B:But I do want to ask, in regard to what you said about the accountability partner, do you find that sometimes.
Speaker B:Because I can definitely be this way, for me, I kind of want to tell people about things when they're done so I can be excited about sharing something good that I've done as opposed to talking to somebody while I'm doing it.
Speaker B:Because in the process it's like, maybe I'm insecure about it or maybe I don't feel like I have everything together as much as I want to.
Speaker B:Or maybe I just want to feel accomplished in knowing, like, okay, look, I did good and I'm proud of myself.
Speaker B:So now let me receive the glory of somebody else telling me how proud of me they are.
Speaker B:I think that might be.
Speaker B:Do you think on some level that may create a kind of like a barrier when it comes to you seeking accountability partners when it comes to accomplishing things for yourself?
Speaker B:Yeah, a lot of times I do a lot alone because I'm just like, well, I'll tell them later so they can look back on it.
Speaker B:And I'd be like, oh, it only took me two weeks, when really it took me a year and a half.
Speaker A:But.
Speaker A:Right.
Speaker A:So for me, yeah, definitely.
Speaker A:So.
Speaker A:So for me, in order for me to really take that seriously, it has to be, I'm starting it now, and now I finish.
Speaker A:And then that person would be like, you know, it took you less.
Speaker A:It took you more time.
Speaker A:A couple of years ago or a couple of months ago, you're doing better than you have been before.
Speaker A:So it lets you see, like, your progress in your process, you know?
Speaker B:So for sure.
Speaker B:And for me.
Speaker A:What about you?
Speaker B:E2, I would say I definitely sometimes, and this is just me being, like, blatantly honest, sometimes you just gotta cut your shit.
Speaker B:And I feel like, honestly, that's where I'm at when it comes to a lot of things.
Speaker B:Like, I just gotta cut my shit.
Speaker B:There's no way around it.
Speaker B:There's no excuses to be made.
Speaker B:There's no sweet way to talk about it.
Speaker B:Like, I just gotta cut my shit.
Speaker B:And me and my therapist have had this conversation a lot just in regard to, like, when you know better, you do better.
Speaker B:But bitch, you know, and you're still not.
Speaker B:So what the fuck is the problem?
Speaker A:Problem.
Speaker A:Like, I just gotta cut my shit.
Speaker B:Like, that's what it comes down to.
Speaker A:Like, stop speaking to me and stop speaking to me in this tone.
Speaker A:I don't like it.
Speaker A:I don't agree with it.
Speaker A:I don't need to hear this right now.
Speaker A:But I do.
Speaker A:Continue.
Speaker B:But, like, seriously, because, like, a lot of times when it comes down to it, it's like, okay, these are the things that I've decided that I want for myself.
Speaker B:And the only way that I'm gonna have these things, because I said that I want them, is if I make these changes.
Speaker B:What does that look like?
Speaker B:All right, so bet these are the changes.
Speaker B:Put them up on the board.
Speaker B:Now, these may be some very big changes.
Speaker B:That might take some time.
Speaker B:They may take some effort.
Speaker B:I might have to strategize and plan, because who knows, maybe there's some habits that I have that have been with me for a really long time, and it's not going to be easy to just cut that off cold turkey.
Speaker B:But this is ultimately what I say that I want.
Speaker B:It's on the board.
Speaker B:So how do I get there?
Speaker B:So for me, it's about moving in a space of.
Speaker B:Of.
Speaker B:All right, bet.
Speaker B:So it's not going to be this thing as to where you can just take out a magic wand and wave it, and everything's just going to fall into place the way you want to.
Speaker B:It's not going to be, you're going to wake up tomorrow and just all of a sudden stop all of the negative habits that you ever had and create completely healthy habits and just live happily ever after.
Speaker B:You actually have to put forth some effort, but the first step is determining what effort is necessary.
Speaker B:And then, bitch, actually making that happen.
Speaker B:Like, for me, in regard to what we always talk about, about spending, finances, money, a big part of what that comes down to for me.
Speaker B:And I'm so proud of myself for the growth.
Speaker B:But with as much growth as I have, I still know, like, you still do, and you need to cut it, like, be proud of yourself.
Speaker B:It's great.
Speaker B:You.
Speaker B:You've come a long way.
Speaker B:Bills come first.
Speaker B:You're not out here blowing the light bill money on.
Speaker B:Like, when I was in my 20s, it was like, oh, the new Janet CD.
Speaker B:But you got to pay your light bill.
Speaker B:But.
Speaker B:But Janet.
Speaker A:So, like, you did order that vinyl, didn't you?
Speaker B:Which one?
Speaker A:The Janet vinyl.
Speaker A:You said you were looking for it.
Speaker B:No.
Speaker B:Which one?
Speaker A:Never mind.
Speaker A:Continue.
Speaker B:No, so we were talking.
Speaker B:I was like, I feel like we had a conversation about Demita Joe and 20 y o, which are the ones that I want.
Speaker B:I feel like the only Demeter Joe that I saw was a CD.
Speaker B:And then, like, the vinyl itself was, like, on EB for eBay.
Speaker B:EB I just want to ebay for, like, hundreds of dollars.
Speaker B:No, I did not.
Speaker B:Not.
Speaker B:I would not.
Speaker B:No.
Speaker B:I've put Mariah Carey and Doja Cat in my cart and taking them out back and forth for two times.
Speaker B:Because, number one, if nothing else from a rational space, I don't have nowhere else to put a record.
Speaker B:But even outside of that, I'm like, do I need to spend this money on some that literally, I'm gonna probably spin the record once and then play the albums on my phone like, I do every thing else.
Speaker B:No, I don't.
Speaker B:So that was, like, me making a responsible decision.
Speaker B:But, like, when it comes to the money piece of it all, I have gotten so much better because when in my YouTube youth, I definitely was that person that just did not have a concept of, like, oh, you got to pay the bills.
Speaker B:They got to be paid.
Speaker B:That's how you keep your things.
Speaker B:You want your lights on, pay the light bill.
Speaker B:You want to keep the apartment and not get evicted, pay the rent.
Speaker B:You want to be able to eat, keep somebody in the budget for groceries.
Speaker B:Don't just go out.
Speaker B:Go.
Speaker B:Don't go to the mall every week.
Speaker B:And, like, you know, so those.
Speaker B:I feel like I'm.
Speaker B:I. I've made a lot of progress in regard to how that looks.
Speaker B:Bills are top priority.
Speaker B:I know what needs to be paid.
Speaker B:I'm managing the debts.
Speaker B:What it comes down to is, okay, the bills are paid, are paid, the debts are paid.
Speaker B:This is how much I have left over.
Speaker B:So let me spend Every penny of that until I have nothing else.
Speaker B:And now I have a weekend, six more days until I get paid again.
Speaker B:So even in that, it's about learning to tell.
Speaker B:Like just how you said libra.
Speaker B:No, learn to say no, I gotta learn to say it to my goddamn self.
Speaker A:And so, like, this is the part about the cut your shit, right?
Speaker A:Like I gotta tell myself this as well because, you know, like, I don't.
Speaker A:I don't smoke as much as I used to, right?
Speaker A:When we talk about, like, we're talking about weed, right?
Speaker A:Mostly because I can't get shit done once I smoke.
Speaker A:I can't hold the conversation once I do.
Speaker A:I'm giddy, goofy and can't keep wanting.
Speaker B:You to smoke today.
Speaker A:And could you imagine this conversation would probably not turn out as great as it is today?
Speaker A:I kid you not, as much as I know that I would have enjoyed it.
Speaker A:This is probably like much better than I didn't because this is a lot.
Speaker A:This is also the energy that's happening right now.
Speaker A:But I do know that, you know, besides me meeting random who wants to call the cops and all some dumb, you know, I got, there are things that I need to cut out of my, My weekend slash, I'm not doing anything day routine that gets in the way of.
Speaker A:I don't need to do that right now.
Speaker A:I need to handle A, B and C, X, Y and Z. I need to turn all of my, my here's a prime example.
Speaker A:And I'm gonna, I'm gonna hold you to this and all of you listeners out there to, to help me be my accountability partner.
Speaker A:I want to repackage my.
Speaker A:The DU project and I want to restart doing that and restart distributing that back out on Tick Tock and starting a new thing with House.
Speaker A:Already put a date on it before my birthday.
Speaker B:Okay.
Speaker A:I maybe just want to be a birthday gift to my, myself to like, that was my baby.
Speaker A:That's what I got my awards from.
Speaker A:That's something that really means a lot to me and I want to restart it up again and actually restart it.
Speaker A:But first I gotta repackage all the stuff that I did.
Speaker A:So I really want to put some focus on that and do that.
Speaker A:And the way that I see his, his.
Speaker A:The little mouse that's turning on this.
Speaker B:Little mouse happening.
Speaker A:You know, and in order for me to do that, there are things that I do do or do not do that have to completely be cut out during this time and I can get back to the man at a time.
Speaker A:Like I don't really, Like, I don't drink that much, you know?
Speaker A:And part of me wanted to go buy a bottle because I got paid today.
Speaker A:And part of me was like, you know, but then I had to pay my debt, so I'm like, did I get paid food on credit?
Speaker A:I've been doing.
Speaker B:As soon as you'd be like, damn.
Speaker A:Gone, you know, and it's too many.
Speaker B:Let me tell you something, because I know y' all can relate.
Speaker B:I'm not the only person.
Speaker B:It's too many out here that'll let you borrow money right now.
Speaker B:It' the.
Speaker B:In the space, not people.
Speaker B:In the space of, like, things that you have available.
Speaker B:First there was Apple Pay.
Speaker B:No, not Apple after pay.
Speaker B:Then it was Karna.
Speaker B:Then it was a firm.
Speaker B:Then.
Speaker B:Now you have zip Pay.
Speaker B:Let me tell you a, that's letting me borrow money right now because I've heard of.
Speaker B:I'm sure y' all have heard of Dave and maybe like, earn or stuff like that.
Speaker B:A that's letting me borrow money right now and is letting me borrow more and more over time.
Speaker A:Time.
Speaker B:And it's only creating more and more debt for me.
Speaker B:Is motherfucking Cash app.
Speaker B:Cash app.
Speaker B:Who the fuck told you to let me hold some money till I got paid, bitch?
Speaker A:Oh, see?
Speaker A:And so I have.
Speaker B:So this is the thing.
Speaker B:You have to have a direct deposit, but if you have a direct deposit, I think they start you out with 50.
Speaker B:I started with 50.
Speaker B:PJ, I am up to $600 every.
Speaker B:Not every.
Speaker B:It is not even every time.
Speaker B:I get paid once a month.
Speaker B:Month, I have to pay back 600.
Speaker B:They let me borrow 600 and I pay back.
Speaker B:I'm telling all my business.
Speaker B:And that's okay.
Speaker B:Keep this in.
Speaker B:I.
Speaker B:They let me borrow 600, and I pay back 630.
Speaker B:And then I turn around and I borrow another 600.
Speaker B:So it's like, I've always feel like I'm in the hole, but it keeps me afloat because there was a time where I really needed that 600.
Speaker A:And so the reason why I won't do that stuff, because I come from.
Speaker A:You know, I think this was around when you were old enough to, like, really, like.
Speaker A:Like, start working or whatever.
Speaker A:But, like, I came from, like, the payday loan times, which is exactly what it is.
Speaker B:I was like, peter, you're literally never.
Speaker B:You're literally a breath of four years older than me.
Speaker B:Like, relax.
Speaker A:But still.
Speaker A:But still, like, they.
Speaker A:I don't know if they could have.
Speaker A:You could have not been working when the payday loans Were out, baby.
Speaker B:I cash advances on my ass now.
Speaker A:Check.
Speaker B:What is it?
Speaker B:Cash.
Speaker B:Somebody America had called me talking about they felt like I took a.
Speaker B:They talk about they.
Speaker B:They felt like I took.
Speaker B:Intentionally took out the loan without the intent to pay and that I need to pay before they take legal action.
Speaker B:Girls, take us a court.
Speaker B:Y' all ain't gonna do but put it in collections.
Speaker A:But I, I. I remember those days of taking payday loans, and I remember I was.
Speaker A:And I was working at Atlantic Health Systems, shout out to the second worst place I've ever worked in Jersey.
Speaker A:And I wasn't making a lot of money there.
Speaker A:And, I mean, I took payday loan after payday loan at the payday loan, and that's like a three.
Speaker A:Like, what is it, like a 300% markup to what you got to pay back, you know?
Speaker A:And it was after that.
Speaker A:Don't.
Speaker A:I don't want to do karma.
Speaker A:I don't want to do none of that shit.
Speaker A:I want to do afterpay.
Speaker A:I've never done it, and I will not, because I've learned my lesson from that.
Speaker A:I'm the type of person that needs to know that the stove is hot and I'll never touch that shit again.
Speaker B:I like it because for me, if I want something right now, I don't have to wait until I have the money to get it.
Speaker B:It's like, bitch, want this right now?
Speaker B:Let me split this up into four easy payments.
Speaker A:I think of it, oh, no, no, ma'.
Speaker B:Am.
Speaker A:No, ma'.
Speaker B:Am.
Speaker A:You will me up.
Speaker A:No, ma', am.
Speaker A:No.
Speaker B:But the thing of it is, is that what it creates is as you're getting paid, you're having to pay these things back.
Speaker B:So that's less money that you have left over from your check.
Speaker B:Because, like you said, I had to pay my debt back, so did I really get paid?
Speaker B:So, yeah, it's a cycle, and I'm trying to break it, but I think.
Speaker A:I learned also and different from you because I don't make a consistent amount of money.
Speaker A:So, like, okay, majority of my money comes creatively.
Speaker A:So, like.
Speaker A:And then when I drive, that comes.
Speaker A:Or when I teach, but I haven't started teaching yet because it's not.
Speaker A:It is October.
Speaker A:So now by next week, hopefully, I should be.
Speaker A:I should be getting an email from her.
Speaker A:Continue.
Speaker A:I'm sorry.
Speaker B:I'm just.
Speaker B:No, no, you're fine.
Speaker B:I'm just tired.
Speaker A:I also turned down.
Speaker A:I also turned down, and I also turned down to school.
Speaker A:I turned out an organization that I've Been working with for the longest because I feel like they've had me pigeonholed.
Speaker A:And this is the other.
Speaker A:This is back to that conversation.
Speaker A:However, that is a steady check, but it's still pigeon holding me into a position that I don't want to be in.
Speaker A:Even though they probably would expand me somewhere, I don't want to be with them.
Speaker A:So it's like making these choices to like making decisions and choices, you know, that's.
Speaker A:That's all we can.
Speaker A:That's all we.
Speaker A:We got.
Speaker A:So we've been here for quite some time.
Speaker A:I don't want to rush.
Speaker A:I don't want to.
Speaker A:This is.
Speaker A:This is your week.
Speaker A:And I think this is like one of the best conversations we've had.
Speaker B:And I'm so proud of myself because coming into the.
Speaker B:As y' all know and I've said this and it is what it is, y' all know me by now.
Speaker B:I don't know what the I' ma talk about on my week where it's my week to say, but it always comes together.
Speaker B:I told him before the episode.
Speaker B:I said, I'll know by the time I need to know.
Speaker B:And look at how nicely this turned out.
Speaker A:I wanna.
Speaker A:I also wanna.
Speaker A:If I want to do one thing and I'm gonna.
Speaker A:I want to make sure that I make a visual of this.
Speaker A:But I want you guys to see the September versus the October, okay?
Speaker A:You see the September has on a white.
Speaker A:Stand up for the people.
Speaker B:Stand up for the people, please.
Speaker A:Stand up for the people that.
Speaker A:Well, you don't gotta stand all the way up.
Speaker A:You got a shirt on that says white positive mind vibes and everything saying it's like, yeah, white headphones.
Speaker A:I have on a black shirt that has a street fighter.
Speaker A:Okay.
Speaker A:Because I'd be ready to knock out.
Speaker A:But he's be trying to be all positive minded.
Speaker A:I used to be like that.
Speaker B:It's because I'm the angel and you're the devil.
Speaker B:And you know, like.
Speaker B:Yeah, yeah.
Speaker B:I said last week, somebody's anchored in.
Speaker A:The middle, you know, so.
Speaker A:Yeah.
Speaker A:But is there anything, anything else you want to add?
Speaker A:Because you.
Speaker A:This is your week.
Speaker A:I'm not stepping in.
Speaker B:No, I was just gonna say.
Speaker B:I will say this.
Speaker B:I think for me, I have made myself so very.
Speaker B:Maybe it's because I was forced to become comfortable with it.
Speaker B:So, like, I have become so comfortable.
Speaker B:Like when nobody is messaging me, when nobody is calling me, I don't pick up the phone to message or call anybody.
Speaker B:And I know that that creates spaces of tension with Certain friendships, because they're like, well, bitch, every time we talk, it's because I'm hitting you up.
Speaker B:But it's just like, I've gotten so used to and felt like I've had to become so used to being all alone.
Speaker B:So, like, I said, stick to that sometimes.
Speaker B:But with that being said, as far as the accountability, first of all, definitely making the.
Speaker B:Do you project happen as we.
Speaker B:You said you looked up and you saw the.
Speaker B:The wheels turning.
Speaker B:Like, yes.
Speaker B:I'm like, oh.
Speaker B:I was like, I might be in a.
Speaker B:A baby junior, not imaginary producer.
Speaker B:Like, we're gonna make this happen, but also.
Speaker B:So as far as the accountability piece of it all, like, I suck at, like, reaching out to people, but I definitely.
Speaker B:Knowing that we deal with a lot of the same things and knowing that in a lot of ways, I feel like we have a lot of the same goals, and we're kind of seeking to prosper in a lot of the same ways.
Speaker B:I am definitely open, willing, and am now holding myself actively accountable to you in conversation.
Speaker B:Of course, I could say this off air, but as well as to the listeners.
Speaker B:Listeners, I'm like, I'm making myself that for you and hoping that you'd be willing to do the same for me, because I feel like we have enough of a space of communication here and, like, it extends beyond this.
Speaker B:Like, guys, this is not the only time we talk, but, like, it extends beyond this.
Speaker B:And so, like, yeah, I definitely feel like we could be each other's accountability.
Speaker B:I think we just have to be more intentional about, like, the specific goals that we have have and how we want to accomplish them and then just kind of like, standing in the gap for each other and holding space for one another and, like, actively communicating.
Speaker B:Like, hey, how's this going?
Speaker B:And, like, I know you said you wanted to do this.
Speaker B:Like, where are we at on that?
Speaker B:And, like, have you.
Speaker B:You said the other day that we're going to do this?
Speaker B:Have you done that?
Speaker B:No.
Speaker B:Okay, get up.
Speaker B:Let's do it right now.
Speaker B:So.
Speaker A:Yeah, that's what I mean.
Speaker A:Yeah.
Speaker A:Well, I think that that's.
Speaker A:That's a great way.
Speaker A:That's a great place to put the pin in an end to this conversation.
Speaker A:Maybe.
Speaker A:Maybe someone check in.
Speaker A:We could ch.
Speaker B:Giving is giving.
Speaker B:PJ is triggered, and he is ready to go.
Speaker A:I'm actually not triggered.
Speaker A:I'm actually feeling really good.
Speaker A:I'm actually feeling really, really good.
Speaker A:I'm actually feeling.
Speaker A:No, I'm actually feeling really, really good.
Speaker A:I think there are things.
Speaker A:There are things that Happen.
Speaker A:Like I told you, that experience that I just had this past week kind of snapped me back into, like, reality.
Speaker A:Like, maybe I just should chill on for people for now and really work on the things that I want to create and do, you know, and that's.
Speaker A:That's where we're back at, too.
Speaker A:And, you know, and while we're snapping back into things, we also would just really like to take it.
Speaker A:I want to be the one to say it this time, ladies and gentlemen.
Speaker A:You guys could be anywhere else.
Speaker A:You literally could be.
Speaker A:You could be, you know, doing whatever you want.
Speaker A:You could be washing.
Speaker A:Washing your ass.
Speaker A:You could be, you know, you know, cooking, eating, sleeping, listening to us.
Speaker A:And we appreciate you.
Speaker A:We appreciate all of you.
Speaker A:Who.
Speaker A:Who.
Speaker A:All right, if you paused us and come back to us later or fast forward, I'm okay with it, because I know sometimes we just be talking and you'd be like, what are they even talking about?
Speaker A:But, hey, that's the show you signed.
Speaker B:Up for those when you got here.
Speaker A:But for those of you who have been with us from the beginning to now, you are the real ones.
Speaker A:Those of you who have just come on board, we thank you so much.
Speaker A:Tell your friends.
Speaker A:Share the podcast.
Speaker A:We're trying to make this great grow.
Speaker A:I also do know that I do know, you know, I want to be held more accountable also for the things that I need to create for this podcast, but that is also, like, a just a work in progress around all my projects.
Speaker A:When it comes to social media, I.
Speaker B:Would like at a point where we both have time.
Speaker B:And what does downtime even look like as an adult who's, like, not a teacher and, like, gets the summers off?
Speaker B:But, like, at a point where we both have downtime, I would like for you to teach me so that I can know how to do it, because I feel like a lot of the reason why things don't necessarily get done to the degree that they could is because you're the only person responsible for them.
Speaker B:And I feel like if we shared some of that workload, it'd be like, okay, well, I'm gonna do it this week.
Speaker B:You do it next week.
Speaker B:You know, like, that.
Speaker B:It's the clap.
Speaker B:It's the cool.
Speaker B:It's the clap for me.
Speaker B:But no, seriously, just so, like, for this space of, like, it not being so much pressure on you, and then as more and more time goes by, it's like, oh, well, PJ's not doing what he's supposed to be doing, but it's like, PJ has a Hundred things to do and it's one of the hundred.
Speaker B:You know, whatever you know.
Speaker B:I know.
Speaker A:We know.
Speaker A:Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker A:I.
Speaker A:Let's do a slow clap for that.
Speaker A:You don't understand, but yeah, yeah, yeah.
Speaker A:But that's you.
Speaker B:That's.
Speaker A:That's conversation offline.
Speaker A:But back to you guys.
Speaker A:Thank you so much.
Speaker A:You'd be spending your time doing anything else, but we appreciate every single time that you come here to sit sit with us.
Speaker A:We hope hope that we've taught you something.
Speaker A:We've hope you.
Speaker A:We've hoped that all of you Libra hating ass out there, don't forget that I still am October Libra.
Speaker A:So this person is going to come back all you hate nasty birds out there.
Speaker B:And if you are a Libra listening, I hope that you really receive something from Dear Libra because that was really special for me and I'm like, bring that back.
Speaker B:Keep that going.
Speaker B:Let's do that every.
Speaker A:Oh no, every week.
Speaker A:I'm not done.
Speaker A:All you.
Speaker A:Oh, let me finish.
Speaker A:All you hate ass people who got all this to say about library Libras.
Speaker A:I hope that by listening to us you start thinking that maybe it is you.
Speaker A:It's not us, okay?
Speaker A:Because it's not always the leapers problem or the Libra's fault.
Speaker A:You know, take some responsibility.
Speaker A:But hey, we love it when people are accountable.
Speaker A:It's not our fault that you aren't.
Speaker A:But anyway, thank you for taking the time to listen to another episode.
Speaker A:We greatly appreciate y'.
Speaker A:All and yeah, so we'll catch you next week.
Speaker A:So on that note.
Speaker B:If you would like to find us on social media, you can do so on Instagram at Waita.
Speaker B:W A W E T A.
Speaker B:What are we even talking about?
Speaker B:Acronym podcast.
Speaker B:So that is Waita Podcast.
Speaker B:If you want to send us an email, questions, comments, concerns, you can do so@waitacastgmail.com.
Speaker B:that is w a wweta.castgmail.com.
